Well, Yesterday had my martial arts training. Did not give in my 100%.
The main reason was, my left knuckle still hurts. But oh well, not blaming anyone.
Maybe i Over-Reacted and was Very Temperamental, I guess.
Secondly, i was too tired 'coz i played soccer yesterday. From 4:30 till 6:30.
Thirdly, i was not in the mood. Brrrrrrrr.
I shared my life story with my best friends. And yeahh, even if i fall,
they are the ones who support me through pain. Simply, i love them.
Had double blow yesterday. Sustain heavy damage. Where? In my heart.
It was indeed a very very painful experience for me. Two blows in a day. Perfect.
Then i told myself, well yeahh, hidop ader susah senang. Aku trimer dugaan ni.
I told Haris, which is my greatest of my best friends abt the double blow.
And he supported me through the night. I gained confidence. I truly love him.
So kind of him to stay up through the night, messaging me and encouraging me.
Kalau lah dier matair aku ke, abg aku sendiri ke, aku dah peluk dier, syg dier. Haii.
Well, i cried. I cry and i cry and i cry. My pillow was so wet.
I kept thinking, why on earth does this happen to me?
Well, when i was with *******, this thing does not happen. But after we ***** ***, it happened.
Arnd 11:30 i guess, my mum came back from mosque, she approached me where i was lying on my bed. She touched me on my right shoulder,
and i said 'Farid rindu mak.' And she cried.
After that, she went to her room and i continued crying. I don't care about the world.
All i care about is my wounded heart. I was praying to god to heal my wounded heart.
And now, i'm feeling better. And one more thing, please do not talk about relationship
or whatsoever. Currently disgusted about relationship.
I brought ******* to the best/greatest moment of *** life and *** did this to me.
Just wanna tell ***, i dearly miss ***, truly love ***. But to make me feel better, and for *** to feel better, let's just move on and walk away. If ***'s reading tis, im not asking for anything.
Sympathy, no. 'Cause i can stand with my own two legs.
Love, no. 'Cause i had enough of having painful feelings and experience.
Friendship, no. 'Cause i'm disgusted by u. U weren't the person i knew when we first met.

*******, i keep our memories together. For long but not forever. We had our times.
U cried when i left singapore for OBS when we were otp. True?
U were nervous when we first met at Bukit Batok Mrt station. True?
I was sitting 3 seats to the left from u during Dunearnite. True?
I called u in the night after dunearnite telling u tat i went so search fr u after dunearnite ended. True?
U called my house number on the last day of my OBS, n u were searching for me. True?
Our first date was at raffles city, i was eating ice kachang and u did not wan to eat. True?
We went Suntec City and we were lost. True?
We went Jurong Entertainment to see people skate and u were shivering and i hugged u. True?
We went Lot 1 and i said 'Can i be your boyfriend who will give you everlasting love?'. True?
And u accepted me on the 6th day of December. We were otp late at night. True?
U were completely happy when i was ur boyfriend. True?
I was cheering fr u during 08 cross country day even though we were not together. True?
I was fighting so hard for u, just to have you back in my heart on 1st of march. True?
I told u my DLS on 11th march o8. True?
U sang to me even though u were very shy on 1st june 08. True?
On 2nd july 08, we went pizza hut and we took pictures. True?
On 26th july 08, u fainted in the mrt and u told me wat happened. True?
On 4th october 08, while we were otp, i told u tat i never had tears of joy in my life before. True?
On 13th october 08, I was so damn excited as u were my first gf to spend hari raya with. True?
On 24th november 08, We went to watch Madagascar 2 at Shaw Theatre, Bugis. True?
We went sentosa and you were damn happy for spending quality time with me. True?
On 5th December 08, 1 day before our 1 year anniversary, i handed u the ring and u were so excited. True?
On 19th march 09, we went marina barrage, u enjoyed being with me even though u were so hungy. True?
U told me, I was the first for almost everything. True?
I spent time with u most of the time. True?
U whispered me something when we ate at pastamania and u mean it. True?
I was the one who consoled/help u when times gets rough. True?

Last, We otp every Friday without fail. True?

So *******, it's time for u to realise how much im dedicated to u. There's alot more.
I won't mention here. Think before u act.
I'm sorry but have to let u go, move on and to walk away. Far far away from u.