At times, I feel depressed, I'm breathless, I can't even stand on my own.
I got no one to talk to, to share with && to have a shoulder to cry on.
Lately, I've been feeling lonely, I'm withdrawing myself against the world, society.
I don't know why, why oh why! Please, I don't wanna cry while typing this.
I know I'm an imperfect human, yes, we all have flaws, nobody's perfect.
Gosh! I can't stand this anymore, I want to let my tears flow down my cheek.
I want to let it all out, the last time I cried was, years ago? Time check; 3:06 am.
Here I am, alone, tears as my only accompany. I need strength, I need to be strong inside out.
These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real, there's just too much that time cannot erase.
When you cried, I'd wipe all of your tears, when you scream, I'd fight away all of your fears.
&& I held your hand through all of these years, but you still have, all of me.
It has been a long tough road for us. We've been together for 3 years 6 months && 15 days.
Remember the day, when I told you, I can't be bothered counting the days && months?
Well now, I will count the months && days. Did I put a smile on your face? I hope so.
When people ask me, how long have you been together? I would say, 4 years.
That is what I will always say, but in truth, 4 years doesn't seem to come. We came short.
I'm sorry, I'm truly sorry to make your cry while reading this. You've been there for me through thick && thin.
I don't have any words to thank you, I really appreciate what you did to me for all these years.
I'm here without you, baby.
Please, I just wanna stop crying right now, but I can't hold back my tears. It keeps rolling.
Maybe I've been holding back this tears since the first day we first met, now I can't stop crying.
All I wanted was you, the warmth you gave me when you hugged me, the love you showered me.
The kiss that's so magical, made me feel that I'm special in this world.
I'm holding on a thinnest thread, because a girl like you, is impossible to find.
That thinnest thread hold the biggest hope. I will always love you, trust me. I'm your's, always.
Imagine a world, just me && you, no fights, no egos, no vulgarities, wouldn't it be nice?
I'm not moving on, I will never stop loving you.
It's too late to apologize, it's too late,
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late.
Baby, you are my one && only, the shoulder I cry on, the person I would share everything with.
I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't even wake up from my dream.
'cause when I closed my eyes, the greatest part of my life comes to alive, to be with you through the night.
Baby, all those small things, I would be grateful, but slowly, things slip away.
We have to look into the future, not the past. We can look at the past but we can't step into the past.
Remember all those things we did years ago? Those times when I held your hand, never letting you go.
Those times when we watched movies together, those times when I brought you to a restaurant.
Those times when I talked on the phone with you using my niece's milk bottle?
Remember those times when you were there for me when my parents were divorce?
Those are some of the little things we did that I will never forget.
Having a long-term relationship is not an easy feat. It requires commitment, desire && trust.
Maybe I've cried enough for today. Time check; 3:34 am.
What a way to kick-start a new year, may you have a wonderful day ahead, without me.
'cause I've been around the world, I've seen so many places,
Livin' the life I've worked so hard to make it,
Trading the world for money, stars and power,
Livin' my life at 100 miles an hour,
I'm loving you, like it was the first time,
I'm still loving you, like it was the first time, like the very first time.
Woah woah, I will never leave ya, woah woah, I will never leave ya.
